Paul's Painful Remembrance
Driving home: it was his consciousness that he was not a self appointed man that gave him the boldness to proclaim his message he had a cultivated awareness that he preached as an appointed servant of the Lord Jesus Christ.
Martin imagines Paul's emotional and psychological pain in remembering his past as a blasphemer, persecutor, and injurious man, particularly the cries of babes and the face of Stephen, to underscore the depth of his unworthiness and the grace of his appointment.
Here the apostle says in spite of the painful remembrance and I wonder what he felt emotionally and psychologically when he had to pen the words blasphemer persecutor and injurious I can't imagine him doing that dispassionately I believe he carried a wound in his spirit to his dying day with respect to what he once was. The remembrance of little babes crying when he forcibly took away mothers and fathers.
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